awards + the feelings that go along.

I remember it like it happened yesterday.

I was walking on my treadmill and had this crazy vision of winning the WI Bride awards for ‘Best Planner 2012.’ I had just sent out my mass email/facebook messages asking my family, friends, and clients to please vote for this little business of mine….but honestly, in the depth of my heart I thought the chances of actually being nominated were so small.

When the day came that WI Bride announced the nominees, and I found out that I was nominated, I literally hit the floor in tears. I may be emotional, but if I am, it’s because I have put my heart and soul into my business. No one can prepare you for the work, sweat, and heart it takes to make your dream a success.

And I was floored.

I think I checked the WI Bride ‘best of’ page that day like 100x’s. I kept thinking it was a dream and each time I opened the page ‘Lizie Anne Weddings’ would no longer  be listed. But it was. It was real….and the vision I had months back kept replaying in my mind.

At the award ceremony, I was a bundle of happy nerves. I held my drink tight when the title ‘Best Planner’ came up on the screen. This time when Lizie Anne Weddings didn’t appear as best planner it took everything in me to not crumple into a puddle of tears. From sheer disappointment. Was I happy for the company that won? ABSOLUTELY! What an honor…and the joy on their faces was sweet to witness.

But later that night I reflected.

A Lot.

On this journey. On my life. On staying humble and knowing that God has the very best for me. for my business. for my family. I know that I don’t need to win an award to know that I am giving my best in all that I do-and that the Lords favor resides heavily upon me. Would it have been wonderful to hang that award on my office wall? oh my gosh-would it have been! But in the end, it’s not about that.

And I know that.

It doesn’t mean that I won’t try again next year {and happily bug you all once more!}. And that I’m not exceptionally happy for my friends that did win {emily steffen and the enchanted barn--love you guys!}.

It just means that I am content. And that vision I had-well, it has yet to come into fruition!

I await and know that the Lord is good.

my friends emily steffen and dani erickson {studio fleurette}.